slamet hari raye

The raya holiday is officially over…I have exactly less than 2 weeks till the finals…I sound intrepid don’t i..?padahal takut gak…...actually takot gile….anyway somehow I feel numb…numb from the gay celebrations, numb from all the sorrows that hover cunningly above it… this raya has been quite a wet one…it didn’t drizzle nor rained ….it poured as if the reservoirs in heaven burst at the seams and flooded the land of selfish and hapless beings…

Tahun ini I came to realize kids are vicious when it comes to duit raya….this year’s collection is close to…err…zero? Nasib baik a cousin of mine came and gave me my only duit raya…yg sedih kids are starting to ask from me…that is not good…coz it means two things….i look old enuff to be working…(still ok) n another is I look old enuff to be married (tue tu!) I shld stop dressing like a warga geriatric….itu satu lg cite…I jeles tgk org pakai bju pesen skang…u knw skinny jeans, funky n chunky jewelry, layering,suspenders! Who would’ve thot that suspenders are in now…dulu malu sial nk pakai…but my mum paksa juge or not my skirt will be around my ankles…haih…tp im afraid il look stupid…coz of the ‘in between’ weight issue..neither fat nor thin…susah jugak tuh…

Im noticing that the keys on this laptop has lost its sensitivity….kengkadang kuar kengkadan tak..herm….blom lg start buat my dissertation…n that my fren is another thing…….

Am I only allowed to savor the idea and what it brings instead of the real thing? sad, sad me….

Oh n if u are tapping into the uncharted regions in my mind,please don’t…I don’t think u’d like what u c…n no offence if u find out I think ur a few fries short of a happy meal….

today

i went house hunting with my brother today...his grand plan is to buy a house as his bday pesent next yr.seeming as to how he is an employee of sime darby he has his heart set on their property development so dapat discount sket la....so we went to putra heights tadi..was caught in an awful jam on the mrr2....an indication on the sort of traffic and lengthy journey in order to get there...so bapoi,when u do move to putra heights dont expect me to c u every weekend....heheh just kidding...anyway, when we finally and eventually got there, i fell inlove with the houses...the new ones of course...the old ones with occupants was,nyeah..but the new ones were not bad....quite nice actually....a very well planned neighbourhood....and the design is quite stylish...ade yg modern...ade yg nak ade traditional concept..i had my eyes on two...even the finishes were great...n they weren't expensive.......not yet!!! so hopefully insyaAllah my bro will get it....so the proximity of putra heights to our current hse,(more to the lack of it) was compensated with the cute houses...i was imagining myself living in one of those houses....n that's whuts bothering me now...i hate getting all hyped up on something that has no full proof of it materialising. ....its a shame i dnt have the pics with me rite now...il upload later...so anyway...looking at hses got me visualizing my future....how i hope it will be like....and what i need to do to see that happen........gosh i really cant wait till i could afford my own place...i think ill be one of those mommies who'll get all those cool pink and gurlish things for her daughters room just because i never had those things....so mcm revenge of having not many things.......hehehe......altho i may sound rather ungrateful,its actually quite on the contrary...i had and have a good life.....it wouldnt hurt to have a little trimmings on what society perceive as a good life...

errr.....finals coming up soon...real soon...more of in two weeks kinda soon.....so pray for that i will study and score big time....please,i need this to work....i need this to happen..i need me to happen....herm dont know what tht means........

oh...love the Skid.....

happy eid

happy eid everybody, happy eid to me....i worked hard at refraining myself from pigging out during fasting month n i managed to lose 2 kilos....just one day of hari raya that probably piled back again bringing a long a few of its kilo frens....... some pics to brighten the mood..n perhaps show everyone Helwa!!! my little burst of energy and awesomely cute daredevil niece...

the day started out with having a mcdonalds breakfast...yeah i know pagi raye makan mcd....how anak dara berjaya i am...oh bt the pancakes were good tho











p.s suraya, try to stay away from anymore nasi dagang....or say helllo to ur triple chins

Adique misses you……..

And to think I hardly shed any tears, 6 years ago…nowadays it seems like the water works are working on overdrive. I burst as simply as any SYABAS water rects. I guess when time cruelly catches up with you, and all the important life changing events are drawing near, I can’t help but to think of u…especially during this auspicious month, above all right now…thinking how you’ll be missing out on those events…makes all those supposedly wonderful moments seem dreadful to me….dgr lagu Perpisahan, nangis….tgk org seronok2 during graduation day, nangis….pk pasal kawen or tgk org kawen, nangis…tgk iklan petronas kt tv pon nk nangis..tersepit kepala kat pintu kete nangis gile babi..6 years seem fairly long. But it doesn’t feel so.

Separuh diriku hilang, separuh jiwaku entah ke mana.

Emo post calls for corny lines so bear with me.heheh…I got another one, I think my mother was a MILF…now boys n girls hold ur horses....MILF= Mak I’ll Love Forever…and that’s what I want to be, the person I dream and wish to be, and that will be the me I want to be….heh….