november rain

ye aku skarang berada dalam tahi....atau terjemahannye in deep shit...semua kerana a disadvantage that ive had since young,acute carelessness.(if there is such a thing)...hahahha...kata-kata my late mother sentiasa terngiang-ngiang di telinga ku tatkala i keep doing these careless mistakes...mak aku selalu ckp esp when she checks my math homework sambil memiat telinga aku,suraya why are u soo careless!!!! there are soo many careless mistakes...i knw u knw how to do this,u understand the equation bt because of ur tardiness and carelessness u keep getting it wrong...haih...smpi ke tua mcm tu....does anyone have any remedy for this? practice makes perfect but what if u are not been given the opportunity or time frame to practice? mati aku mcm ni....i notice that doing something at least more than twice actually does the trick,bt it cant always be like that all the time right.....i cant expect people to keep up to my schedule...i have to be the one rushing according to theirs....life as we see it is nothing but a mad dash to reach the summit...and what lies at the peak is something different for everyone tp membawa satu nuansa yg sama which is i guess is to survive,or is it to succeed?or smue org suke naik atas bukit pastu tgk matahari terbenam or terbit....

"what's the deal with same sex marriages?every married person knows that sex is always the same after marriage"

Robin Williams-as tom dobbs in man of the year...

P.s-men look super hot when they are doing household chores....sweeping,scrubbing,and mopping just makes women quiver in delight....and that is why i love you

esok,kini dan selamanya.....

scratch,i am my own scratching post,
it burns,it bleeds,it rips, it heals,
can I?really?

i left work 5.30 pm sharp today.....kepala dah buntu tk tau nk buat ape..hahaha....yg bestnye i reached home 10 past 6 n i made dinner...ate it while watching the nanny which i think is a great accompaniment with ur food and a heavy head (or heart).....aku tulis mcm aku tgh emo padahal tak.....

it just comes to show i dnt have anything to write abt....i just feel like punching on keys to make words instead of numbers for a while.....

i see that a lot of people are getting married left right,front and center...sebagai seorang perempuan yg memang kaya dgn naluri2 utk kawen jadi bini and ibu,aku pon tak terkecuali from berangan nak kawen.....its like a plague skarang ni....bt i certainly am looking forward to my frends weddings which wld mostly take place next year....at least these thoughts keep me happy and preoccupied during my half an hour commute to work every morning...the fishy-stinky smelling breeze as u pass by selayang is not the only thing that puts a smile on my face...i senyum mcm kerang busuk thinking abt that very special leap we would all take in life,sooner or later.....kan kan...

As u walk on by,
will u call my name?
when u walk away...

dont u forget abt me....la,la la la la........-dont u forget abt me(tears for fears)

bedak follow me

i have been tagged by amirul to list down 5 things people dont knw abt me...problem is, i think suraya in general is an open book.(or so it seems)...make it the lighted menu u see at mcdonald's drive thru....so aku tak tau ape yg korang tau n tak tau pasal aku pon tk tau...hahahha...but for the sake nk melayan aje ...in random order,here goes...

1. i like even numbers.....and ape2 kene sama rata....if possible lah....volume dials are to be of even number.....if my left butt cheek is spanked the right one must be spanked too if possible using the same force and technique...if not i feel like my butt cheek is lop-sided and tk betol...mungkin ini boleh dikategorikan sbg a mild obsessive compulsive disorder....because besides the even numbers thing and the whole must-spank-other-butt-cheek-,kalau aku jalan atas surface yg ada kotak2 atau line2....i feel compelle to walk in the box or square pattern that is on the surface ataupun i must not step on the lines....aku rase mcm walking on land mines if i were not to tread carefully...

2. i am a hard core berangan-er....and that's all i am going to say....

3. i am a sniffer...so far i like to scratch n sniff (if u knw wat i mean) and ive smelt other awful things....i knw how taik cicak smells like...not that bad tho...

4.mungkin ramai yg dah mengetahui....dan mungkin aku dh tkde idea...but for a very long time since as as far as i can remember, my ambition as a kid was to be a cashier girl....n i still harbor those dreams....the closest thing to that is me punching my calculator for work nw..

5. even tho my favourite colour is purple,aku suke smue warna actually....this is because i want to be fair to all colours....i guess this cld be categorized under item nr 1...or probly its because i tend to believe that inanimate things have feelings and emotions,that does not like to be hurt just like us humans.......

btw,here are a few pictures taken during our company dinner in bangi....it was...menarik...

ini colleague i nama dier gena

gena adalah emcee pada malam dinner itu

ini sha,and her son qashfi,sha dan qashfi makes me feel nk kawen dan beranak skarang juge...bagi saya dier adalah MILF....

i had kfc for lunch and chicken soup for dinner....im done with poultry for today.........

red ants can cause accidents....well almost....

aku merindumu.....ding dong

quantum of solace

such a long hiatus n i think poor ol' swine has been neglected a bit too long huh...not to say ive been really busy at work...more of been busy sucking n farking up at work ade lah...there is not much to say tho....basically everyday i wake up at 5.45 n leave at 6.55...for the time being i dnt have to stay till late nor do ive to come to work on weekends as my workload for the time being is jackshit as compared to the others...so from the advice of many of my colleagues, take any opportunity u get to go home early..coz after this being home at 8 would be a luxury...hahahha....ive made a few friends.....most of which are those in the same boat as me....project executives committed to serve the company for 2 1/2 years....the nature of the projects and work are i guess, interesting in nature...its just that im still overwhelmed with the fact that now i am not only accountable for myself as any other human being but i am accountable for the things that i do that would affect hundreds n thousands of others n not to mention the millions n millions of dollars at stake....one screw up n im screwed bigger than any screw uve seen....as u can c or read,life is pretty mundane for the time being and it is very apparent in my writing...what i look forward to everyday are phonecalls (or quick dates) from (/with) suaidy and a nice shower n my soft comfy sleep duds n the calls of blissful slumber....selalunye aku drive dalam on the way home kete mata aku dah 3 1/4 tertutup....n is only 9pm...

ive never been so unsure n in doubt of myself,my capacity,my intelligence, my reason n rationale...i knw it is still too soon to say but that is the feeling that is swimming in my gut everyday....im glad i am not a doctor....coz if i am i cannot afford to doubt my judgment n wit when lives are in question...kan...

thanks to u,everything seems to be better,brighter,sunnier n a whole lot less bitter......