DELL

today i experienced my first 'finger+fist' in ur face punyer gesture on the road to work tadi...suprisingly it was an old indian guy who got pissed with me.....maybe i was in the wrong tadi..but i signalled before i switched lanes...he might have not seen me untill the last minute kot...tapi .....i still think i was not entirely wrong...sket2 ader la kot...cuak gak..mane tau org tue tu tetibe mengamuk kat aku....nanti kene heart attack aku gak to be blamed...

anyway last saturday was my brday...thank you so much to everyone who gave me presents and well wishes......sayang had to give me my present a week early coz i menggatal took a teeny weeny peek but ended up seeing too much...so dier frust tak dpt suprise i so dier kasi tros.....its a dress by the way...really cantek..i suke sangat...gile babi punye.......u rawk baby...and erm, his mum gave me a handbag,my roomate gave me a oriental red pouch,n em...my fren will be organizing a makan2 for me this friday kot...heheheh.....

i need to diet..i must diet...for the umpteenth time aku ckp..tapi it falls on deaf ears je..MY DEAF EARS!!! its just so hard bile dikelilingi makanan sedap2 dan enak2 n yg tak berkhasiat n featured on the top calori and fat list to be avoided sampai nak kene ban setiap hari!!!! uwaaa...to gain weight is so easy..to lose them is a chore....and fatty foods are so much cheaper than healthier ones..........what does that say about my eating habits?..hhehehe

this shitty olive colour reminds me of the organic wheat drink i once had...it tastes just as bad as this colour...what u have to go thru for beauty....ow,i should always think of this is for my health,and not for the vainpot i am........

royal spring

semlm was valentine's day....smue org seronok meraikanyer...prices of roses and dinners at restaurants sky rocketed...its amazing how commercialism can do to such a celebration that doesnt even have a public holiday to its name...anyway,suaidy and i have never celebrated V Day...not that we were anti- V Day neither did we think it was very special up to a point it became a necessity to celebrate...but i'd like to spill wat happened to me yesterday...

lets start with the night before,i was pissed and hurt bout something...of course love and boyfriend related....couldnt do a thing that nite but mope about it..went out with my roomate for maggi soup and more bf bitchfest.....when ur mad all sorts of old rubbish yg buat u bengang escalates...u exaggerate ur feelings and sorts..when u feel all hope was lost,there he goes and gives u a mad suprise...yesterday morning, when i just arrived at work,he called saying he was already at the lobby in my office building...i went down to find him lurking or rather hiding behind the elevator with a HUGE bouquet of yellow lillies!!!! OMG OMG..perasaan seronok tak terhingga,hiba,shy smuer ade..mcm nak meletup muke aku...he sengaja actually made me piss like that the nite before in order for the full effect of this flower thing to happen...yg comel tu dier nak main sorok2 kat tepi lift...sayang ur built is no longer of a 8 yr old boy...tapi cute giler...but all the guys at the office had a negative thing to say...mcm perli besarnye bunga n stuff...n takleh belah nyer ade this guy tegur saying "dah pakai tudung tu n org islam maner boleh sambut valentine" (i wear d tudung at d office) i mean fark u la kan...ur not so holy urself..i mean i know how u stair at us like fine cut australian beef...smokin gin the elevator when it clearly is prohibited...pastu nak ckp mcm tuh....hish...ur just a sad ass fuck who's not getting any coz u cant even do a small sweeet gesture to ur wife....

anyway...that little hiccup does not affect me one bit...im still so ecstatically happy....i dont really like flowers...so i thought..heheeh...but receiving one from someone u love so damn much,mcm tak terkata....yerp they will die soon,but the feeling u had when u got it in d first place plus the situasi plus the hunky boyfren....haih memang cair aku sampai bile2....thank u so very the much sayang....without a doubt you r the bestes n d rockest.....and i love u so much and more...

yeo's

this month's expenses menakutkan....!!im spending as if im earning rm4000 when in fact its one zero less than that...anyway i came across an advert in d nst about an unbelievable sale for mng,victoria secrets n calvin klien ...90% off tuu.....and in a building rite next to my office....was pretty hyped yesterday abt going.....tapi deep down i hoped that i will be dissapointed and dissapointed i was...the merchandises were in ghastly condish....walaupon murah tapi mereka mcm x patut dijual pon or even c d light of day....so i was happy becoz of d dissapointment.as it means no money was spent.....hehehe...byk lagi nk guna utk perbelanjaan seharian....its not even mid of d month but most of my gaji dh gone....

tonite will be our dinner.i think ive mentioned it before....wat am i looking forward to is to catch up with frens......binge on d latest goss n food of course....tapi somehow i notice,sometimes,kan, in a room full of people pun,kadang2 raser mcm ive been teleported to a place where i can hear only the echoes of my thoughts....

herm valentine is near...so is my bday...nothing exciting bt getting older when thots on how more responsibilities and life complications are headed ur way....

sayang im sorry i was grumpy yesterday.........sayang u sangat....nanti buat la lagi wat u wanted to do for me yesterday...heheheheh.....confirm nxt time jadi punye....

bye nak g buat keje......kalau tak nanti org ingat i dpt gaji bute,,...adieu

maybe tomorrow

aku suke2 je nak taknak update blog ni....sometimes i feel i just want to terminate and be done with this...its not as if i have interesting things to say about myself or daily anecdotes that is worth ur time reading it....or my time writing it....but what the heck...nak story ape citer last week....

we (me,awin,jaja n D BOSS) went to penang last week..a day trip to oversee an almost completed project....gosh,the last time i was there was 10 yrs ago....or more...i kecik lagi..time tu tapak kaki kecik lagi...i actually bought a pair of very ugly red and white polka dot shoes...gosh the horror...kat komtar...hehehe....i never had good fashion sense......sampai skang..haih...buat memalukan mak aku je......penang was blazing hot....georgetown was buzzing and congested...one thing i noticed when we got off d bridge was how penang actually looked like singapore or hong kong.....although ive never been to both of those places tapi tv ader duh!! high rised condominiums dominate the island.......more underway too...owh dapat makan goreng pisang mahal tapi berbaloi...it seems this goreng pisang is very famous...dier jual seketul terus.....kalau kat sini satu ketul pisang belah tiga pastu jual 6 1 hinggit...ke 4?.kat penang satu goreng pisang is 70 sen....ok la kan..puas...i did not bring back mutiara or i love penang tshirts n keychain....instead a bloated stomach,sweaty armpits and an absent mind....

im supposed to be on a crash diet....this week..konon..this coming friday is our pre-grad dinner for our seniors....kena kempiskan perut sket....do u take someone's invitation to the gym as an insult?a hint or just a friendly gesture?lets just stick to the latter...

last friday i went for pizza and a movie with my girls (kels and amy) and my boy with his boys (iryan and aizat),it was hillarious....kecoh satu pizza hut...we stalked this waitress at delifrance...we harrassed another waitress at dome...pastu tgk citer the holiday....a chic flick...poor boys..to be dragged to watch a chic flick is to them trecherous...hehehe....our verdict...the holiday is very corny,slow and a useless attempt of trying to evoke that fuzzy feeling and also quiver our loins......we also realized that jack black never gets to shag or even snog a female character in any of his movies....kesian kan....or is it good?

the dashboard confessionals confesses that hope is dangling on a string,
the snow patrolers are lonely fucks who lye on the road asking others to risk their lives just to lay with them, to also chase cars in their heads when in fact actual cars can just run over their heads and end their pathethic misery.the fray however are in bewilderment, they began to wonder why they came to hear dash and snow lament about their miserable, desperate and pathetic lives.... dash and snow, in the end died due to a motorway accident......fray was overcome by bouts of depression as he didnt know how to save a life, have cost him the lives of others,who may not even deserve to live,tapi nak buat mcmaner dah itu suratan takdirnya...
it is evidently clear that i am just writing nonsense...my nonsense that only makes sense to me...

to you out there, i love you...and i love you some more...more and more...for always...