Circus

point no. 1) Is it particularly wrong to feel something so intensely amazing, when others might not jive the same way...or probably i am too animated for my own good....

point no. 2) Freakishly, it happened...can't really remember the details how it did when it did but it did happen...that alone and throw in how frequently although quite sparsely these accounts come about is enough to make me wonder,maybe i am partly fantastic...in ways no one would ever want to be..

point no. 3) buka-ed in the dark today because of a black out that lasted about 6 hours...such a wuss and pussy i am coz can't stop whining abt the lack of entertainment...pastu amazed at how this is the condition for some back then and even more so now....

point no. 4) is it possible to want something so badly that u lose track on the why's rather than the how's along the way....

does fasting become null and void if u swallow fossilized food scraps between ur teeth?or mint flavoured spit..

Anakku

I am having a baby.....care to help me pick out names anyone? oh it's a boy by the way..

Is life

i find it funny,as how certain turn of events cause me to wake up in the middle of the night in sweat, "did I or didnt I?" "am I, or am I not"....it's a saturday, am i late for training or work or is this one of the lucky saturdays where i can just stay home and fatten myself up...


speaking of recent turn of events, things are looking quite interesting in some areas and rather bleak and harrowing for others...either it's abt the public caning , death inquest, 1Malaysia, preposterous divorce settlements, hurricanes, typhoons, open burning, human genocide in Uighur and the Flu.....i only read the headlines in the daily papers....plus the night sweats, no wonder i'm starting to grow grey hair.....even though it could be related to some vitamin deficiency, i'd like to think of them hairs as a symbol of adulthood and wisdom....hahahha.....

Sometimes if all you have are dreams......takpe....at least it's free....the only thing that is free now...even peeing or a glass of water costs you 50 cents.....so u drink up 50 cents, n u piss out another 50 cents ....thats a whole ringgit going down the drain...

familiarity is cool right.....comfort is key kan? then why do people search for more...is it ok not too? is it selfish to yearn more?...

hello world

hello world............. wide web

...it's been too long....

i missed you....i missed this...the swine might need to go for a 're-branding' overhaul...current events...tak sesuai dah...

whereas for me.....

-rusty
-fatty
-tired
-bleurgh

surviving on blips....blips of hope that i still have a chance to turn things around....back to square one and work from there...

oh yah...ahya ramadhan

ok bye!

will come by again......soon...i hope...coz i need this...