Bonn

i abhor the paranoia that is caused by unnecessary chaos....u cld say i cn be the most paranoid person around...i guess i inherit this from my father...when he is paranoid i get agitated with his paranoia n then i get reeled in it as well...haih...call me immature n selfish but more often than not i curse at the situation that is rite now....some people find it an honour n a privilege to be living in an era or period that might be recorded in history books years from nw....they claim those harrowing times either brought by war or depression or whatever social distress as moments that defined them as humans...a kind of affirmation for them to feel that they have done well n deserve certain social recognition...in order just to be ok...just to be able to accept thyself...ok i am now officially lost...pendek kate wat im trying to say is that i dont like whatever is happening now that is or cld get between me n my happiness...i do not wish to experience probable historical events....too many people dying n suffering everyday so its not fine n dandy for anyone pun...tetapi what power do i have....rejecting it wld make me seem unappreciative n of course an unbeliever... yet i do not want to be a prisoner in my own fortress of fear....

im thinking cock rite now instead of talking cock....n im gona lay off from posting pictures fr now..to see hw it ends....