a creation
when u try ur best but u dont succeed, when u get wat u want but not wat u need,....
stuck in reveeeeerrse...
chris martin is a brilliant man for conjuring such simple words but is actually so true...haih..that's wat im feeling rite nw..well ive been feeling dat way for quite a while nw n probly even before that song was ever written...but the full force of its' meaning is agonizingly felt now..my mundane days of indulging myself in doing absolutely nothing, are accompanied by the feeling of rejection and obscurity..yes i knw i cld just be exaggerating d whole thing..you might be thinking, what sort of hell can a person (me) go thru if she's just sitting on her fat-cottage cheese bum all day...the depressing rain and scarry as shit thunder/lightning is not helping the sombre mood either...
a person with insecurities and self esteem issues like myself would love to n conveniently point fingers and push d blame towards others for her own faults n flaws...and leave myself to wallow n drown in my own moat of self pity..but deep,deep deep deep down in my heart and at one tiny corner of my mind, i have no one else to blame bt indeed myself..but its nice y'knw...putting d blame on others..its more convenient...its just im depriving myself from the sweet scent of liberation.....and i can plainly say dat its just the case of being in denial..hahahha....
does being obedient and responsible has to come with sacrifices...a dimwit i am...it seems a self less act cn be rewarding, bt how about selfless acts that comes with a little grunting muttered under ones breath? can that still be considered selfless.....
i call that real life.............
p.s...this emo post was actually a recap of hw i felt earlier today...im now back to being ....happy? hopeful is a better word i guess....
..........would u consider engaging in a deep conversation with me?..............hahahah poyo..
stuck in reveeeeerrse...
chris martin is a brilliant man for conjuring such simple words but is actually so true...haih..that's wat im feeling rite nw..well ive been feeling dat way for quite a while nw n probly even before that song was ever written...but the full force of its' meaning is agonizingly felt now..my mundane days of indulging myself in doing absolutely nothing, are accompanied by the feeling of rejection and obscurity..yes i knw i cld just be exaggerating d whole thing..you might be thinking, what sort of hell can a person (me) go thru if she's just sitting on her fat-cottage cheese bum all day...the depressing rain and scarry as shit thunder/lightning is not helping the sombre mood either...
a person with insecurities and self esteem issues like myself would love to n conveniently point fingers and push d blame towards others for her own faults n flaws...and leave myself to wallow n drown in my own moat of self pity..but deep,deep deep deep down in my heart and at one tiny corner of my mind, i have no one else to blame bt indeed myself..but its nice y'knw...putting d blame on others..its more convenient...its just im depriving myself from the sweet scent of liberation.....and i can plainly say dat its just the case of being in denial..hahahha....
does being obedient and responsible has to come with sacrifices...a dimwit i am...it seems a self less act cn be rewarding, bt how about selfless acts that comes with a little grunting muttered under ones breath? can that still be considered selfless.....
i call that real life.............
p.s...this emo post was actually a recap of hw i felt earlier today...im now back to being ....happy? hopeful is a better word i guess....
..........would u consider engaging in a deep conversation with me?..............hahahah poyo..
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