garden of knowledge and virtue

1.graduation robe-check
2.graduation hood-check
3.graduation mortar board-check
4.convocation baju, shoes, tudung and what not-check
5.unexcited, couldnt care less feeling abt tomorrow's convocation-check!

almost 4 months ago when i finished my last exam, and stormed out of the human freezer we call studio to de-frost or thaw ourselves, i was hit by a sudden burst of euphoria just imagining how my convocation day would be...how tomorrow would be to be exact...

but today, about 24 hours before i would go up on stage, walk in careful strides so not to fall on my cute behind, all that hype and excited feeling has been reduced to a pulp of blergh...when i think abt the traffic jam to enter uia, to the hassle of finding a parking spot, to lining up, to answer to ppl why i am still unemployed, to smile and pose for pictures, and to endure the weight n the heat from the bulky robe and stuffy headgear almost the whole day...kalau aku dpt special award maybe i might sound less bitter..hahah...people say that once ur already there, lining up n waitng for ur turn with ur frends, the atmosphere and all, i would feel the excitement again...i guess that is true...we'll just have to wait for the next post that comes after this one to knw how it went...perhaps with pictures to help illustrate...

all i want to do is curl up into a smelly, fury and lumpy ball in bed all day.....it would be nice if there was a tub of ice cream to accompany my sorry self...it may gv me a toothache and extra 'love handles' topped with acerbic guilt...

and to you, fuck you and fuck off!